Listing down the conditions requested by hell-keepers in order to be released from UNI-HELL.

Okay lets list down the current pending assignments ladies and gentlemen.

WARNING! PLEASE TAKE NOTE!

1. Lesson plan for Aural-Oral
2. Lesson plan for Teaching Reading
3. Research for Psycholinguistic
4. Group presentation for Educational Philosophy
5. Textbook analysis for Reading & Writing
6. Essay for Teaching Reading

And not to mention TESTS and EXAMS. All need to be done within A WEEK hopefully. Maximum period given is 1 MONTH. A lot huh?

Gosh i got a lot of reading and stuff to do and here i am WRITING about it instead of actually start DOING it.

LMAO, how freaking ironic muahahaha~

p/s: procrastination is the new 'way' of life. Everyone is soooo 'into' it nowadays :D

I wanna wake up late!!

Haih~

Got so many things to do even during weekends.

Can't get up late. Everyday got morning classes huhu.

And maybe this time i won't be able to return home till 16th April.

1st weekend: kursus kahwin

2nd weekend: Theater at sabak bernam

3rd week: have to stay home if i wanna go back on the 16th.

Must go back on the 16th cuz someone promised to belanja everyone that day wahahaha!!!!

Cupid, stay the hell away from me! :P

(=.=) is it the Fall-In-Love month or something?

Most of my close friends are, or have finally be in love. Finally met someone to be together with.

Which reminds me that i am very, very much alone.

But i'm happy. Alone but happy. No more heartbreaks. No more tortured feelings of waiting his text or waiting for him to call and ask how i do. No more stalking his social network profile and stalk on every female friends he has. No more being suspicious of his faith in loving me. No more crying due to misunderstandings. No more tears due to missing him so much. No more doubts either he really loves me or just wanting to toy around with girls.

Most importantly, no more heartaches of being dump by the person i love so much.

Simply because i don't have any. (^^)

I admit i do get envious at times but nah~ i'm tired of crying because of guys. Been there, done that. I still can't forget how HURTFUL and PAINFUL it was to cry because of a guy due to so many reasons. But now i just think that guys are a bunch of jerks. If they don't come finding me to love me then i won't give a damn either.

Before this i would be the one in search for love. To me, love won't come to u unless you throw an effort to do so. But this time i'll change that belief. This time, i'll let love comes searching for me.

If love never showed up in my life then i guess it won't hurt to stay single. Ahaks. :P

Clearer

a day i thought will be happy

Turns out to be a day of disaster.

which makes me realize so much things, the hidden meaning between the line.

Which also almost killed me as its cost.

This is where i draw the FFFF line!

I'm not gonna let anyone or anything ruin my FFFF weekend anymore.

Be it, not even the FFFFF lecturer.

I'll skip class of i must.

My own happiness and satisfaction is my own. Not gonna trade it for any FFFFF responsibilities.

My own weekend and planning is my own!

And this time no one is going to ruin it!

I MEAN IT!

p/s: i just cant stand it when my weekend plannings are burnt just like that due to unexpected occurances. Urgh! FFFF annoying!

I don't wanna go home.

I don't wanna go home.

But I miss 'em.

But I don't wanna go home. I don't like the place.

Cuz its so far away. So far away with everything.

With my friends. With the city. With everything.

Feels like i'm being cut out of social life when i stayed there.

I don't wanna go home. :(

p/s: i rather stay in UNI-HELL than going back there. no more motivation to go home. No more feeling excited of going home. Just plain empty.

Depression is freakin' hard to do.

Will depression give me the 'lack-of-appetite' mood?

Why is it so hard for me to become depressed? (T_T)

Why do i always tend to be ignorant to problems?

Why is it so easy for me to become happy?

whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhy?

Disturb me on weekends and you'll die.

I want my weekend off!

I want my FFFFF weekend off!

I wanna lie down on the bed and sleep and wake up whenever hell i want!

I wanna write the novel that i have been procrastinating to finish!

I wanna read the novels i just bought which i have never even read a single word yet!

I wanna watch the movies stacking on my shelf!

I wanna organize everything of which i never have the time to do!

I WANT MY FFFFF WEEKEND OFF!!!

My first overnight :P

OMG.

First time in my life to do these kinda things:

1) overnight with two guys and a gal

2) riding bike long-distance with a guy

3) driving a motorcycle for a few kilometres on a highway

4) slept at R&R stop till next morning

5) enter the times square theme park

6) double date

Had the greatest experience i cherish in my life! XD

I'm loving it!

This semester is UNBELIEVABLE.

I don't know how to label it... Either it's positive or negative.

Honestly the whole drama thing is pointing towards negativity.

But that's what makes it all interesting, hence setting my opinion to this semester as a positive! (^.^)

I love these kinds of complications going on~ *snickers*

Because these are the things that makes life far from dullness. :P

New place sucks (T_T)

Since i moved to this new place, i thought things will go better for me there.

But turns out its hard to adapt to a new environment.

I still feel like an alien visiting those nearby towns. I felt like i'm only just visiting this place. I refuse to admit that this will be my home and the place where i will hang out often starting from now.

Yeah i'm in total denial.

I don't feel like home in my new place. And since going back home now is such a FFFFF troublesome to me, i can't return home as often as i used to do. (T_T)

Before this, my motivation that keeps me 'alive' in UNIHELL is the 'looking forward to go home every weekend' day.

Since i moved to a new place which doesn't feels home, i think i would rather stay in UNIHELL rather than going back to that place. The problem isn't the place or going there. The problem is to get back to UNIHELL from there.

No more motivation for me to keep pacing forward in UNIHELL. I feel like i wanna give up everything. (T.T)

a 25 year old man behaving like a child?

One old man was sitting with his 25 years old son in the train. Train is about to leave the station. All the passengers are settling down into their seats

As the train started the young man was filled with alot of joy and curiosity. He was sitting on the window side. He went out one hand and feeling the passing air. He shouted, "Papa see all the trees are going behind".

Old man smile and admired his son's feelings.

Beside the young man one couple was sitting and listening all the conversation between father and son. They were little awkward with the attitude of the 25 years old man behaving like a small child.

Suddenly the young man again shouted, "Papa see the pond and animals. Clouds are moving with the train".

Couple was watching the young man embarrassingly.

Now its start raining and some of water drops touches the young man's hand. He is filled with joy and he closed his eyes. He shouted again," Papa it's raining, water is touching me, see papa".

Couple couldn't help themselves and ask the old man. "Why don't you visit the Doctor and get your son treated?"

Old man said, "Yes, We were from the hospital. Today my son got his eyes for the first time in his life".

Moral of the story is;

We must not come to any conclusion until we know all the facts

p/s: love this story. its really touching.

New home~!

From now on i am from negeri sembilan.

No more selangor. (T.T)

But i'm glad i have my own room finally.

And i love the new place. (^^)

p/s: oghang nogoghie pun oghang nogoghie ler~

Babling~

ideas. inspiration. its all there. i just need to write them down.

But where the bloody hell is EFFORT and PERSEVERANCE???

I need constant motivation. (T.T)

God works mysteriously.

okay this is a miracle.

Or rather what malay people call jodoh.

I'm going to move to seremban this week.

So i told this chat friend of mine about it because he also lives in seremban.

And suprisingly he knows my house, even the specific NUMBER of my new house without me telling him the details.

How does he knows?

Because apparently he lives right next door. XD

And the cool part is that we have never met our entire life. only contact through phones.

And all in a sudden we are going to be closest neighbours yet. lol.

God work in mysterious ways.

Life is always full of surprises. :)

p/s: is he the one for me?? (O.o)

new everything -.-

New home.

New life.

New beginning.

Old spirit -.-

From now on i have to go ulang-alik from seremban to uni-hell.

Damn3.

Me happeh!

Had a great time today.

It was different. Out of routine. I don't regret of going out today though i was this close to not being able to return to UNISEL and attend tomorrow's class.

Wish i had an overnight.

That would have been sooooo cool!

Work, work, work! holidays also must work!

Theater props.

Tests.

Assignments.

License.

The process of moving to a new home.

*sigh*! so many things to do during sem break!

Baik tak payah cuti macam ni! FFFFF!!!!

An empty jar of?

Have you ever went through a time when you feel so empty inside?

Empty as in a full jar of candy which was SUPPOSE to be filled candies, or used to be filled with candies. Lots and lots of different sweets and candies and chocolates.

But its empty. Somehow the jar no more than only air inside.

And when you see the jar is empty, have you ever thought of changing what used to be inside it with something else?

Replacing candies with marbles for example. Lots of marbles. Fill it with marbles.

Or collection of paper stars.

Or maybe you would prefer to stick with sweets and candies?

Or maybe..... You'll just leave it empty?

I can't see my future somehow. My long-term goal. I can't see what i'll become. Everything's just so cloudy right now.

What only matters for me currently is to finish this damn degree thing asap.

After that what will become of me? i don't know.

I hate being educators. i can't realize my dreams to be a script writer because i don't have a degree in that particular field. I don't know if i can ever be a novelist since i lose confidence in my own work these days. everything's just so de-motivating right now.

And so far i fail to find a particular kind of job that could use TESL degree student other than education-related. FFFFFF~

Couldn't even focus in class recently. All i could ever think of everytime i attend classes is the moment those lecturers will allow us for break or when will they be ending classes.

Cant focus in class at all! keep on forgetting to do homeworks, forgetting to study, forgetting tp revise and delaying assignments~!

And right now my jar of candies is empty. And i don't know what should i fill it in with next.

should i fill the jar with my dreams to write? or filling it with bitter spirit to train myself to become an educator of which i truly hate the most?

Or should i just leave it empty? and being de-motivated?

Damn i need to fix myself~

Maybe i'm just feeling empty right now due to mid-sem break mood. huhu~

I HATE being forgetful~

owh SHIT~!

One 'tragedy' after another!

was locked inside a toilet in UNI-HELL

Forgot to bring my matrix card halfway to UNI-HELL from home (During FFFF registration for crying out loud!)

now, the MOST recent tragedy~

Forgot to bring my hostel keys when i already REACHED UNI-HELL all the way from home!!

Argh!! me and my stupid forgetfulness!