i have to be less active in that world, and have to start waking up and handle my own world.
i know i can't run away from reality and my own life forever.
one day i need to face it too. It is only a matter of time.
therefore i made up my mind. things just HAVE to change.
it doesnt matter if it takes a slow pace, i just need to do something with my life to make it feel much more fun and worth living than pretending to be someone i am trully not.
one day i have to let 'them' go.
i need a proper goal i can work with and start becoming a freaking machine to achieve it.
I CAN! I KNOW I CAN!
p/s: yeah i can do it the whole time, i just chose not to,