Wednesday, 17 April 2013
And with this laptop, i began the old passion i've left for so long; writing.
To my surprise, i can still produce a piece of literature, tailored by words i didn't even realize knowing, let alone producing!
I felt like crying. I really thought i've lost it.
Am really proud of myself.
The small writer's soul in my had been waiting for years to be unleashed all along.
Dear my skill for writing,
Thank you for hanging in there, buddy!
Saturday, 6 April 2013
Thursday, 28 March 2013
Sunday, 24 March 2013
I just can't freaking believe it that he exaggerated on something that to me is not a big deal.
My heart belongs to him. Just because ive forgotten to delete some stuff about my past, his sensitivity has led him to ending things with me. And start over as just friends.
Wtf... it was some video i took before i knew him for heavens sake! And it just didnt occur to me to delete it! I didnt even remember about it until he asked abt it! Whats the big deal?? Why breaking up over some stuff of my past? He said he has a valid reason. For goodness sake, why bother abt that stupid old video anyway?? Why make it as such a big excuse till u wanna end and start over with me??
he seriously needs to get a hold of his stupid emotionally unstable problem. Im trying to fix things but if he remains an asshole and thinks one stupid old video is going to affect us, then he can go to hell. I have enough caring for his feelings. Always have to be careful on what to say with him to avoid hurting his feelings. Do u know how irritating it is to always have to be careful all the time??
i cant breath and i dont have the space to really be myself around him! God!
im the woman here. I get to be emotionally unstable, not him.
He's being a serious jerk about small stuff like this.
Wednesday, 20 March 2013
Monday, 11 March 2013
Thursday, 7 March 2013
Sunday, 17 February 2013
Right now, my body is just plain tired. I have lots of plans planted in my head right now but i cant seem to get them done even when i do have free time.
No, i dont know what my next goal should be. Im not surea myself. Im just too exhausted to think or plan anything else.
And nope, i dont hAve boyfriends. Not anymore.
When the time comes, the time comes. Tired of searching. Right now, my mindset is 'we'll cross the bridge when we get there.'
I really just dont care anymore. I am plain exhausted.
I'll do whatever thinkinh i should be doing next morning.
Saturday, 16 February 2013
it has been far too long since i last wrote something here.
Updates? well lets see.
i am DONE with dating and flirting. all those shitty dates only tires me down. not to mention wasting a lot of money on the dates. yes, i am the one who has been paying for all the stupid dates. screw me.
and i am TIRED of searching. i just want to focus my love and attention to only ONE person. This time, i really want to be commited to just ONE guy. but i haven't found one worthy of my effort, love amd time just yet.
my job is okay for now. The only downside is that i dont get to have any day offs or holidays even on weekends.
my passion is back, and the idea is on. The only thing lacking is the skill to write smoothly. gotta fix on that soon.
life? life has been... pretty much dull but comfortable. i dont know what to look forward to now since i am done with blind dates. just hoping to go with the flow and see what's in store.
Monday, 28 January 2013
Thursday, 10 January 2013
i find inspiration to write through listening musics. only certain kinds of music will be able to inspire me.
and when that moment happens, i will close my eyes and imagine the scenes in my storyline which fits through the music.
that is one of my source of ecstacy.
p/s: any music you would like to share? i prefer sad, melodramatic, sentimental kind of music.
Thursday, 3 January 2013
Wednesday, 2 January 2013
-Got back with ex-boyfriend for only a while, until he cheated on my money. (never paid back till now)
Refference for Summary of 2011: click here!
apart from the bedroom, the toilet is my next favourite place to be.
because i can sit there and get my brain gears going, focusly.
eg #1: spending time just sitting in the toilet booth for a long time at the office to think, arrange my thoughts and/or sleep without being distracted.
i dont know why. toilet booths just seemed so peaceful. the only place where i can be left alone. i quiet place, with my own personal space. and no distraction from people and the environment.
p/s: the toilet has to be clean and dry of course.