Planning the Future

Just feeling glad everything is where they are supposed to.

I just hope i don't have any UNWELCOME STALKER here in my blog.

Other than that, the day is all fine.

Need to line up future plans. My goal list is currently empty right now.

Best to Leave.

I've had enough.

I should've known it was a bad idea.

Before this matter goes even worse and out of hand, i best leave the place.

I just did what i did for the sake of not tainting their names, and they re-payed me with THIS.

Who knows what they'll do to me if i suddenly messed things up even more in the future?

They felt threatened and decided to do that to me just because i did what was right. I know they can do more damage to me in the future if i stay.

Even THIS has done pretty much damage to my dignity and name in front of the the others. I can't risk anymore damage to my family's name in the future.

I hate the place. Better find jobs closer to my home.

And most importantly, UNRELATED with anyone whom i know.

ESPECIALLY RELATIVES.

Lesson well learned

feeling stressed... extremely stressed and depressed.

problems have gotten out of hand.

to the level where relatives are nosing in as well.

i just want to end this. quit this job and find another one.

learned my lesson now, never to work with relatives again.

Summary of Updates

Haven't been writing for quite some time.

You know what? i finally got my baby nokia n9!!

And i'm happy with it too =P thanks sis for finding it for meh~

Hurm... A lot of weird and dramatic problems are happening around in my workplace tho.

What else? Well, i'm still the lonely but content old me.

I still don't have that feeling of pursuing men anymore.

No, i'm not gay. I just lost hope that's all. I don't have that eager feeling anymore.

And you know what? i'm starting to consider to change my looks or something. Look better, style better and stuff like that. I wanna give it a try.

But i'm still lazy to apply make ups. =_= its a pain in the ass to keep applying them with this hot weather, i feel like my face is smudged with thicker oil everytime i applied make ups.

*sigh* dreams? forget about them. I don't have it anymore.

I don't feel like being creative anymore.

All i see myself now is a single unit who works to get paid and live her empty life.

And enjoys the weekends and day offs to the max, by waking up late and staying home all day long.

My life right now is pretty much as the above.