Torture to 'death'

I can't stop whining about a lot of problems.

Its just me. my habit. thats just what i usually do to let out the stress.

But this time, my inner voice kept on screaming at my ears.

"Go fucking do something to change your life. You gotta start from somewhere somehow. Small steps are fine. The least you should do is to start moving your ass to work that out from somewhere."

And this time i wanna do it right.

Crying, tears, cursing, whining, that is all part of the change.

This year i will make sure i TORTURE myself to the limit that i myself cannot stand it. I will torture myself to the limit where i would fucking hate myself for doing it.

THE ultimate limit.

BRING IT ON!!!!!!!!!!!