A very valuable lesson.

Thanks to a few people, i have learned a very valuable lesson for myself.

In both negatively & postively.

I hate them of course. But i can't.

Because like how i learned from that person, negative feelings will only bring you down. You can feel them temporarily but don't let them conquer you into doing stupid things in the name of temporary satisfaction.

Because the consequences of doing so last a lifetime.

You won't know what will happen when you act out of anger.

You might lose the relationship you took so long to build.

You might lose the trust you work so hard to earn.

You might hurt the person deep enough for him/her to do stupid things him/herself due to your action out of anger. When you get angry and let the fury conquers you, you will definitely do hurtful actions by abusing physically or verbally to others.

When others feel hurt, they feel sad or angry. Again, the negative feelings that leads to irrational behavior. And these other people might do stupid things to himself/herself/others. And the people affected by the action of stupidity will be the ones feeling hurt, and might hurt other people as well due to anger or sadness.

Driven by the power of the feelings of negativity.

You need to understand the feelings are there for only temporary. If you let yourself be consumed of this madness, it will be a never-ending cycle.

It is not just better, but the best way to put an ending to the cycle is by avoiding from starting them at all.

How? By calming down, sitting down and temporarily distracting yourself from the fury until you feel calm and rational enough to give it a second thought.

My personal opinion is to sleep when you are angry. When you feel the burning rage is boiling within your veins, just immediately transfer yourself to your most comfortable bed, hug a pillow, turn on the air-condition or fan into full blast (as so to cool yourself down physically and mentally, heat will only generate more anger) and lullaby your eyes to sleep with calming, soothing songs.

When you wake up, you won't even remember why you have gotten so angry. Or you wouldn't feel as angry as you did the first time. You will start giving a second thought to the occurrence that caused anger towards you. You will start saying things like, "Why was i even that mad in the first place? thinking back, i don't think it is such a big deal anyway."

Ok, maybe you won't say things like that, but at least you will definitely feel less angry than the first time, hence leading to rational judgments and actions to overcome the problem or incident that has made you furious previously.

Therefore the conclusion to my story here is that i cannot hate the people who thought me the valuable lesson eventhough they have made my life miserable in a way.

And that is because i would not let the negative feelings call hate conquers me. When i do, i will definitely (not MOST definitely, but TOTALLY definitely) do stupid, irrational actions.

When i do that, like i have mentioned, it usually only gives me temporary satisfaction, but costs regret of a lifetime.

I won't hate them. But that doesn't mean i can't dislike them. You just can't force people to like you, especially after what they did affects you terribly emotionally & mentally.

Eventhough their excuses of doing so is for the better good of my future.

Only God can decide on what is for the better good of my future, not them.

Only God can determine on my punishments for what i did wrong, not mere people.

But then again, they were right in a way, and although their ways of teaching me a valuable lesson pained me, i am accepting in facing the pains. For the better good of my future.

Thank you for beating the crap outta me. Trying my best not to hate you guys. Don't blame me, i'm just a mere imperfect human. At least i'm trying right?

p/s: blogging, writing and having people reading what i am saying is a way to calm myself down. By distracting myself from the negative feelings :)